Adopted Children Adult Adoptee's and Suicide Reality
What ever blame society wants to label adopted suicide, Adoptee Suicides are a reality that suicidal thoughts has a persistent place in the mind of the adopted, weather we act on them, threaten others with or silently suffer with. I have attempted suicide three times without telling anyone, and fortunately kept waking up alive. The first time I acted on this ever present reality that came so naturally when the threat of punishment was realized the only answer that came to my mind at thirteen years old was to grab the 38 handgun and end my life....or face the wrath of my adoptive mother for sneaking out.
Looking back I see the thought process of a child versus the fear instilled by irrational adoptive parents created my irrational reaction, that I'd rather end my life than face their inflated crazed anger toward me. I am glad that I did not pull the trigger that day when I was thirteen years old, I put the gun back in the drawer and nobody ever knew the constant threat of a quick answer to my miserable adopted existence. The end to the suffering has too easy of an answer to me, except when my heart stopped, I consciously suffocated to death and died for
"4 1/2 minutes" that changed my thinking about suicide and gave me freedom from the fear of death and a new reality for the spiritual consequences of taking one's own life....
Huffington Post's Excellent Article