Adoptee Poems __________________________________________
I can only defy you and make you regret,
your wasted years molding me worthy,
That I will always be in your debt.
I can never be trusted as long as I live your lies,
I refuse to believe In your gods and your shame,
I refuse to believe that I am just "Like" the same.
When A new master can assume the responsibility
A marriage will lift you from your burden of the,
the new master will own me and deny that I'm Me.
I am but your adoption failure
I am your wasted effort,
to mold me into someone worthy,
even as I reach the age of thirty.
I can only offer you disappointment
anger and narcissistic rage,
I was your only scapegoat, blacksheep and page.
I am forever the deposit for all things that go wrong,
I can still be used in memory
When you put me where I belong.
I will never bring you happiness
that you needed so badly back then,
I can only bring you hatred
Of my suffering from within.
I am not a human being,
someone worthy that can be trusted,
I am only the butt of your jokes
and a laughable side-note encrusted.
I was never worthy of such a human task,
if I'd only I believed your sanctimonious lies,
and pretended that I was cast.
To be part of your family,
I must believe your lies,
although I must to lie to myself, pretend it to be true
and play my role you mapped out for me of disguise.