Disorganized Attachment, Attachment Refusal of the
Sociopathic Adopted Child
As an adopted infant that never experienced bonding with biological mother at birth, Immediately indoctrinated into the foster system as a ward of the state. I experienced five foster caregivers in the first six months, at that time the intentional confusion and shifting from carer to carer was to avoid attachment to each of the foster parents pending adoption. Unfortunately upon adoption, to replace the dead stillborn female child of a grieving mother, the grieving mother rejected me, and several new caregivers stepped in to help. The grieving mother grew jealous at the pseudo relationship that was developing with her adopted child and the next carer and she was dismissed. I was sent to grandparents for the next several weeks and again upon return to the adopted home was rejected by the adoptive mother and shifted to the arms of a new caregiver. I have estimated 15 carers, foster mothers, babysitters and relatives of the adoptive family in the first year of life. I am a borderline sociopath who engages in meaningful relationships with strangers only. I never formed any attachment to anyone and am chronically unreliable, non-trusting and unconsciously rejecting of any form of social human relationship.