About Adoptee Rage

Statistics Identify large populations of Adoptees in prisons, mental hospitals and committed suicide.
Fifty years of scientific studies on child adoption resulting in psychological harm to the child and
poor outcomes for a child's future.
Medical and psychological attempts to heal the broken bonds of adoption, promote reunions of biological parents and adult children. The other half of attempting to repair a severed Identity is counselling therapy to rebuild the self.

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Adoptees Forced Conditioning of Deception

The forced conditioning of deception, Is how adoptees are trained to comply with their new owners. The problem is that the child has already lived in it's true identity, In Utero and birth has already occurred. The infants identity has already been biologically established and imprinted by DNA upon the child forever. Adopted children are forced to live  and assume the life of a legally fictional person created by the new owners.
The adoptee is then forced to comply unconditionally without question of the details that they are given. The basic fact in forced alliance of a phony identity, then the fact that the child does not really belong with the family, Is a conflicting paradox within the truth. The evidence for troubled adopted children points the blame at the child. In reality the double standard forced on adoptee children, when the blame should fall on the deceptive story that adoptees are forced to bear for their lifetime.
A young adoptee is given bits and pieces of information and when they begin to put it into understanding they are labeled defiant. The greatest problem of normal healthy adopted children is that they grow into adulthood. In adolescence the concept and understanding of complex abstract thinking is an expected age related development. For adopted children this time of development is problematic and anticipated to be punishable with great consequences of understanding development.
The irony is that the legally defective child and grounds for returnable compensation, Is actually the child who will not grow into the despised  understanding phase of the adolescent child.,Thus continual embracing
of the deceptive story and identity of the adopted child who can never grow up. That should be the child that is sought for adoption., who will sustain the adoption allegiance for their lifetime., Never questioning what they are told to believe. 
How can Adoptees begin to build a real Identity, While sorting out the lies of their puppet masters?  
I feel sometimes that the lies are so thickly embedded in our recollections, that we should scrap even the good memories?

To look back on what was good, and then realize the untruth of the
information is unfortunate of the adoption deception story.
As infants, we are submersed into a new fictionalized story complete with a new fictionalized identity that we are conditioned to comply.
Adoptees are desperate to be accepted, putting aside reason when faced with unstable facts. We jump into new relationships as innocent lambs,
trusting the wolf's impending slaughter. We want to trust and to believe
that we are worthy of anyone pity. We look directly into the eyes of the liar and want desperately to believe them. It is what we are taught to do.
Because we have come of age, we think situations and people will be different, be better. We somehow still believe that future people will be better, truthful and loyal. We are forever in disappointment of our lives.

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Adoption Law Is Evolving

handle is hein.journals/branlaj27 and id is 483 raw text is: THE EMERGENCE OF WRONGFUL ADOPTION
The status of a parent-child relationship created by adoption is a
relatively new concept in American law; the first adoption statute was
not enacted until 1851.1 This legally recognized creation of a family
was designed to protect the child and was very different from the
placing out system of that time, which in essence was the distribu-
tion of children to be used for cheap labor.2 Modern adoption statutes
are intended to promote the best interests of the child and to create a
status that resembles as closely as possible the natural parent-child
As is true with any relatively new area of law, time must pass
before unsettled questions are considered and answered. This refine-
ment is required in a particular area of adoption law: the recourse
available to parents whose adopted child manifests a physical or mental
defect, which the parents were unaware of at the time of adoption. Of
course, when the problem develops after adoption and is not related to
a pre-existing condition, it is a situation that anyone must recognize as
an unfortunate possibility and a risk that is assumed when the decision
is made to become a parent through adoption.
A more complex issue is involved when an illness or defect is dis-
covered that existed prior to adoption. It is well established, and logi-
cal, that parties placing children for adoption are not guarantors of the
children's future good health. Undetectable problems are another risk
associated with the decision to become a parent, whether by birth or
adoption. But what of the situation where the adopted child's condition
The first adoption statute in the United States was enacted in Massachusetts in 1851.
Kawashima, Adoption in Early America, 20 J. FAM. L. 677 (1982).
2 Howe, Adoption Practice, Issues and Laws 1958-1983, 17 FAM. L.Q. 173, 176 (1983).
Department of Social Welfare v. Superior Court, 1 Cal. 3d 1, 459 P.2d 897, 81 Cal. Rptr.
345 (1969); Eggleston v. Landrum, 210 Miss. 645, 50 So. 2d 364 (1951); In re McDuffee, 352
S.W.2d 23 (Mo. 1961); Comment, Best Interests of Children and the Interests of Adoptive Par-
ents: Isn't it Time for Comprehensive Reform? 21 GONZ. L. REv. 749 (1986).

The Courage of the Unnatural

 Adoptees are the epitome of unnatural . Altered at birth by the
society whom profits. By superstitious conditioning, conception resulting
in a sinful product. The label of bastard as we are born into illegitimacy.
They deceive our parents in to giving away the live flesh from their body.
The utilization of fear upon the ignorant., Supernatural threats based on
the Christian philosophy of suffering and misery following death.                                       The disturbing reality of the Christian community utilizing scripture as tools of condemnation to justify stealing babies.
The psychological manipulation of expectant mother, Of the deplorable violations in human dignity. Arguments that a pregnant women is too young and poor. The irony of problems are temporary, and not necessarily are they problematic. A newborn infants only need is mother. Outside of the womb In the arms of it's mother. The newborn infant is an extension of the mother. To deliberately disturb the sacred natural bond between mother and child is a cruel abomination. The intentional disruption of human dignity will result in lifetimes of unnatural effects and dire circumstances that can never be healed.

Friday, October 19, 2012

Disowned, Disinherited, Denied Cycles of the Adoptee

How many times have I been disowned, kicked out, rejected and ejected from my loving adoptive home environment., Decisions by the County of San Diego's Department of Social Service professional's decisions based "In my best Interests".
When your parents tell you to get out of their lives,                                 Get out of their house and Don't come back.......
The tone and the scene is one of screaming and yelling. This recurring
"Family Late Show" takes place at night, and usually initiated by intoxicated arguing parents. The fight is escalating into a knock down screaming match where #1. I tried to intervene. #2. Took the wrong side of the argument. #3. Wrong place at the right time. #4. The fight
was based on my inadequacy. #5. The fight was based on my parents threatening divorce. #6 Based on their general alcoholic lack of memory.
When a young person is being screamed at, shoved and hit, the memory creates a big impression that is not easily forgotten and can not be mistaken for "They were joking, and really didn't mean it" (If I was stupid enough to bring this up)
The fight and flight reflex that we adoptees learn well how to escape
becomes a natural response to "get out" and we leave the drama.
Go back to that friend or boyfriend's house and find sanctuary in any
place on earth but our family's home. For a time we pretend this is a new start, an improvement or a worse predicament  To adoptees it is just a temporary change, so try to enjoy it while you can. The reality of our personal misery will surface all to quickly for us. Days may pass even months may go by and eventually they will decide that we have been punished long enough. The parent will go to the toy-box and get the puppets out again to play.
Then somehow during this time of great peace, self reflection
and personal growth as an individual....
The barb that is permanently embedded through my lip begins to feel the tension. Then comes the sharp and forceful jerking against gravity.
My brain tells me to resist, fight back and try to escape the entrapment.
The restraint tether that is staked in to my heart begins to feel the pull of being reeled back in. The volume becomes louder and the stage turns round in the circus of my psychological distress. 

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Post Adoption Services? County of San Diego Activity Is Questionable

The County of San Diego, Health and Human Sales Services, Adoption Agency.....  My Acquisition by SD County (HHSA Adoptions)
                  SD County negociated with biological mother for the rights
                  of my ownership. The plans for immediate adoption
                  fell apart, as I was born with birth defects from Dioxin.
                  The county was now stuck with a sick newborn and
                  responsible for medical care. The product was defective.
                  Anticipated profits from this child sale looked grim.
                  Four foster homes later they found a buyer, and were
                  able to recap the losses from the defective product, ME.

Post Adoption Services:
One would expect counselling, advice, group meetings, literature....etc.
I was sent a 10 pages stapled together of websites to aid in searching for my parents. Then 4-5 pages outlining the expected psychological trauma and problems that are normal and expected to happen to all adopted children. Very informative. So Post Adoption Services is to reunification with real parents, in a nut-shell. The staff couldn't be more
annoyed by my inquiries, and act as though I am bothering them.
This agency is responsible for their poor administrative decisions.
The lease they could do is have apathy for adoptee's that are victims
of the San Diego department of health and human services adoptions.

......Reviewing the 2010 budget (which is a public record) states
that this county agency gets large sums of state and federal funding for "Post Adoption Services". The ten copied pages and postage that I received do not amount to millions of dollars. Maybe $5.00 for a ream of paper. What is going on at the coveted county?

AS I search over and again, make calls and inquire

Home Life of the Adopted Child

The inconsistent morning

I awaken as mom's screaming from her bed, telling the kids to get up.
Then she demands to do my hair while dad is sitting on the toilet. The plumes of his cigarette smoke, the can of aqua net. The steady and foul smell of shit make bathroom a torture chamber. I am forced to hold still looking straight into the mirror.  Watching my dad wipe his ass a thousand times and then begins to smear. This image that I have tried to block out, although if I tried to block every thing that is gross or shameful, I would have no memories.
Mom sitting on the toilet,
and dad laying in the bath, this is where they want to talk with me about what bad thing I have done. Although this smokey room looking at my parents private parts is punishment enough. If I cover or close my eyes
They will slap me in the face. I think my shyness makes them mad,
I inspire their disgrace. It is ironic how they value appearance and their bar friends view them as upstanding citizens. She will force me to wear a dress too short to cover my panties, yet spend an hour in the torture room styling my hair. Then dump me daily late to school and after that I will wait. I am not allowed to take the bus, nor am I allowed to walk home. Everyday I sit and wait into the dark for my mom to pick me up.
When I was much younger I relied upon the bus, I would go and come from school on time. No one was ever home, and being home alone for me was normal. My life has been at the mercy of my adopted mother's whims. Some nights when she was home alone, she would make me go with her searching the bar's parking lots for my dad's car. She would be angry and cussing why dad went out without her. If she found his car, she would write a nasty note and put it on the windshield. Sure she was drinking her wine while sitting pissed off at home. Then she would get a good buzz going then her anger sets in. Then in the car to drive around to all the bars to find him. When dad would finally get home the shit would hit the fan. They will fight kick and scream late into the night.
When they would go to the bar together, and then the bar would close.
they would fight all the way home in the car. At home as they walk fighting and come through the front door, dad yells "wake up the kids"
Let them watch how cruel there mother becomes. Punching holes in all of the walls, and crying on the floor. Toward the morning winding down
the last stand of the fight. My dad takes out his 38 handgun and threatens suicide. Mom ignores him and goes to bed, while us three children are left to console the crying drunk father with a gun. His last stand of the suicide threats is to throw it through the glass window.
A few hours later when the sun comes up, no one will speak a word
about why we were up all night. My brothers will go out into the grove to find the gun. Dad's breakfast is the hair of the dog, and he will go off to work. Mom will get up late, then stuff the holes with newspaper and plaster away them gone. All will be restored to normal, as long as no
one says a word. Even if I said something, Nobody would have herd.

Sunday, October 7, 2012

U.S. Department of Consumer Affairs Incharge of Child Abduction & Adoptions? What!!

International child traffic sales up for 2012
Child slavery is OK, according to the dept. consumer affairs.
Desk jockeys provide government insight regarding involvement of international Affairs of child traffic. These clowns are the baby sales police, disturbing!
The Department of Consumer Affairs represents the best interest of the child trafficer, when dealing with international baby sales.
Exerpts from (Wikipedia.org/child abduction adoption) publications
The Office of Children's Issues is an agency of the Bureau of Consular Affairs, which in turn is part of the USDepartment of State The Office of Children's Issues and the broader US State Department has received sustained criticism by parents of children abducted to and from the US and the lawyers who represent them for failing to treat international child abduction as a human rights issue rather than a diplomatic irritant,[citation needed] and taking a non-partisan, impartial role rather than effectively advocating for victimized parents and abducted children.[3]